Prologue:
Shinji has sunk to a new low
At the sterile
hospital section of NERV lied Asuka. She stared directly to the ceiling in her
comatose state.
Just then the door
opened and Shinji walked in “Asuka… Asuka, I need you…. Come and help me… Tell
me I’m an idiot…”
Asuka couldn’t
respond, even if she had wanted to.
Shinji reached his
hands and started to shake Asuka “Asuka! Asuka! Help me! Help me!! Asuka!!”
However while
shaking Asuka, Shinji accidentally tore her clothes and revealed her naked
breasts.
Shinji blinked and
breathed hard. He did not know how to react. He was seeing something Asuka
would probably never show to him.
He realized he had
a huge erection.
Shinji moaned
while he unzipped his pants as he watched the comatose girl’s body. He started
to move his hand back and forth along his penis while he held on to the torn
bra in his other arm.
He felt like this
girl possessed him. Even in at a state where she couldn’t even react to his
presence, she still had a total control over him. He wanted to be with this
girl so much, wanted things to return back to normal. He began jerking off
faster, while he secretly was thinking back all those times where Asuka had
scolded him. Secretly he enjoyed the attention she gave to him, even if it was
just a negative one. He wanted Asuka. He needed
Asuka.
He moaned as he
ejaculated all over his hands and some over to her naked body.
“I am so fucked
up,” Shinji whimpered silently while watching his sperm covered hand.
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Wake up Shinji. Wake up.
Shinji opened his
eyes, only to realize that he was naked and inside the sea of LCL. Everything
around him was completely orange and he felt himself floating endlessly in a
total bliss and freedom. He remembered all the happy moments he had in his life
and he felt safe. He remembered his father calling him by his name and how the
people encouraged him to live on… He was happy and did not want this moment to
ever end.
Misato…
Shinji saw his
guardian, Misato Katsuragi form from the sea of LCL before his very eyes. Her
beautiful naked body approached him, as she smiled at him and gently hugged the
young boy. She whispered into his ear words so beautiful that they made
Shinji’s eyes moist from the happiness. But suddenly he could no longer
remember what she had said…
Misato…
Just as
mysteriously as she had appeared, Misato was soon gone. It was getting cold and
dark. Shinji felt the warmth of his body, his happiness, and his life being
sucked out from him. He felt no more happiness. Only despair and coldness.
Where am I… Misato?
It hurt when
Shinji tried to think. He wanted to cry and he was sad. He remembered all the
horrible moments.
Is it wrong that I don’t want to suffer? WHY CAN’T I
JUST BE HAPPY?!?!!?
Just then Shinji
gasped and woke up from his trance, covered in his own sweat. He took few heavy
breaths as he tried to calm himself down. He realized he was in Eva 01.
“Strange…” he
thought to himself while closing his eyes. “I don’t recall climbing in here…
Why did I get in? Why did I climb in even after what I had done to Kaworu…? Why
did I climb in… Even though all this thing ever causes is sadness to me? What
do I have to do anymore?”
Just then Shinji
could have sworn that he heard a familiar voice in his head “Because… Because
only you can truly help us…”
A… Asuka? Is that you?
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Chapter
1: Shinji’s torment
As Shinji opened
his eyes again, he found himself back at Misato’s apartment again. He was near
the doors that lead to the living room. Opposite end of the room from him was
Asuka, sitting with her back turned to him.
“Asuka… Help me… You need
to help me; I don’t know whom I am or what to do anymore… I am weak; I’m
pathetic… Please help me…” he murmured as he approached her and gently placed
his hand on her right shoulder.
Asuka remained
still and did not say a word.
Shinji shook the
shoulder he was holding as he continued, “Please Asuka, you’re the only one who
can save me… You’re the only one who can truly help me…”
Asuka slowly
turned her face towards him “Liar,” she mumbled underneath her breath before
suddenly standing up. “You are too scared to face your father, too scared to
face yourself, too scared to face Misato. You’re too scared to face even the
first child, so I’m the only option left for you to hang on to and to make you
feel better,” she shouted while she pushed Shinji away from herself.
Shinji lost his
balance and fell, while accidentally dragging the coffee pot that was on the
table and pouring the hot coffee over him during the progress.
“You’re pathetic,”
was the only response that came from Asuka’s mouth.
Shinji cried and
held his head down “Please Asuka, you have got to help me… Please…”
Just then
something in Shinji’s head snapped as he grabbed hold of the table and tossed
it over.
“Please!!!!!” he
screamed while he grabbed a chair and tossed it against a wall.
Asuka stood
completely still while Shinji threw another chair that barely flew past her
head.
Shinji placed both
of his hands on Asuka’s shoulders and bowed his head down, as he mumbled
silently “Please…..”
“No,” she replied
near immediately.
Shinji was silent
with the only sound coming was his weeping. Just then he looked into the eyes
of Asuka and moved both of his hands to strangle her. Shinji looked into her
glassy eyes that begged him to stop, as she tried her hardest to stop him.
But Shinji did not
stop. He kept strangling Asuka, while tears came from his eyes. He kept
strangling while her struggles grew weaker and weaker, as her eyes rolled back
towards the sockets.
I only wanted you… To help me…
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A mere blink and Shinji found himself in a bedroom. What he saw before his eyes
were Misato and Kaji at the age of his, both lying next to each other naked.
”Ritsuko keeps asking me when I’ll be coming back to school… I can’t believe
we’ve already been doing it for four days,” Misato giggled.
Kaji smiled and
caressed her hair “Does she know about us yet?”
“I don’t think so…
But that doesn’t matter, let’s do it again…” Misato cooed while she moved her
right hand to gently caress the soft cock of Kaji.
Is this what Misato does? Is this what makes her
happy?
As Kaji started to
get hard from Misato’s hand movements, she crawled towards the growing erection
of Kaji and began to lick on the tip while caressing his balls. She wriggled
her behind for him and sat on his face, while she put the penis into her mouth
as she drooled on the length.
She pulled her
mouth away from the penis and gave a kiss to the length before taking one of
his balls into her mouth. She licked and sucked on the sack while she pumped
her hand up and down the erection. She then pulled her head away from the
testicle and moved her attention back to the member itself, starting to lick
and suck on it harder and faster than before.
At the same time, Kaji was licking the entrance of her vagina before probing
the tongue in. Misato obviously liked it, judging from the moan of a pleasure
she let out. Kaji started to hungrily lick inside her pussy, enjoying the
taste. He moved his tongue out of the pussy and licked on the clitoris. While
he was doing that, he moved his hand closer to Misato’s pussy and inserted two
fingers inside. They went in easily and he started to move them in and out,
while he went to lick and out the pussy again.
“Ohh Kaji… Mmm… I
want you…. I want you inside of me…” Misato cooed while she moved away from
Kaji’s mouth and over towards his erection.
She smiled as she looked at Kaji and lowered herself down, making the cock
enter into her wet pussy. They both moaned from pleasure as Misato started to
move up and down the cock of her lover, while licking her lips in a state of
ecstasy. While moving his hips in a rhythmic fashion, he reached his hands to
caress the beautiful D cups of Misato. She already had big tits and from the
looks of it; she was still growing. He pinched on the nipples gently, while
Misato continued to rock her hip back and forth.
“Oh God, I’m
close…” Misato murmured.
Kaji groaned as he
leaned closer and buried his face between her tits “Me too… I want to come
inside of you…”
“Yes… Fill me with
your hot sticky cum… Do it for me…” she moaned.
The dirty talk was
the last straw, as Kaji gave a groan and shot his load deep into the womb of
Misato. Misato moaned as she felt the huge amount of sperm enter her.
”You’re incredible… Even after all the times we’ve done it, you can still come
so much…” she cooed.
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Chapter
2: Death welcomes you all
Just then Shinji
felt the presence of Asuka next to him who again spoke “Did you want to do that
with me Shinji? I know how you had always masturbated on me while I was in a
coma… So why didn’t you save me when you had the chance…?”
Shinji turned to
look at Asuka’s mutilated remains. He nearly threw up as he saw how Eva series
had totally destroyed her.
“Do you still find
me beautiful? Do you still want to masturbate on me?” Asuka spoke while she
positioned her sickening ‘hand’ on top of Shinji’s shoulder.
As Shinji was
about to answer, he suddenly saw Rei appear before him.
”What do you want Shinji? What do you want from the world?” she questioned him.
No one ever cared of me… So they can all just die…
“What about your
friends? And your family?” Rei kept questioning him.
I don’t have either anymore… So they can all just die…
“Do you wish the
destruction? And utter death and demise of all of the people you hardly even
knew?” Rei asked while keeping her emotionless face.
If I had known these people they’d still not care of
me… So they can all just die…
So be it.
Suicide.
Betrayal.
It all returns to
nothing and keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down…………
Death.
Mayhem.
It all returns to
nothing and keeps tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down…………
And that’s how the
world as we knew it came to an end.
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Unfortunately,
we cannot ever tell each individual’s fate of what happened during the Human
Industry project. So we shall focus our story to Misato Katsuragi, the Major of
NERV.
“When I was a
child, I hated my father. I hated and loathed him because he never cared for me
or my mother,” Misato spoke while she floated in absolute darkness. “I laughed
at him and taunted him while he cried, as my mother divorced him. I wanted
nothing good for him, I just was glad to get him out of my life…”
Misato fell silent
and bowed her head down.
Finally she was able to continue “And yet, he
was the man who saved my life at the cost of his own…. And at that moment, I
was unsure of what to feel about him… My confusion only continued when I fell
in love with Kaji… Who reminded me of my father…”
And so, you killed him.
“I… Killed Kaji
when I was told to… And only afterwards did I realize how much I loved him… But
then it was already too late…” she confessed to her own personal demons.
And so, you killed him.
Tears started to
fall down Misato’s cheeks “Yes!! And I’ll regret it forever!!!”
And so, you killed him.
“I already regret
it, and for as long as I live!! What more do you want from me??! I already will
suffer from the guilt every day for the rest of my life!!” she screamed to
herself.
Murderer…
Misato covered her
face as she lost total self-control “I am not any better than Shinji… I can’t
really tell him not to run away from his fears… Because I was so afraid to
realize I loved a man like my father that instead of facing my fear…. I killed
the only man I’ve ever truly loved…. I’m a sick bitch who has tried to flirt
with a boy half my age… I only joke around to hide my fear… I’m worse than
Shinji…. He at least doesn’t pretend that nothing is wrong…. I just hide
everything behind a fake smile and then cry myself to sleep…. I am a filthy
whore and I deserve to die!!”
Just then, Misato
saw a kid version of herself staring directly into her eyes. The kid didn’t say
anything. She just stared, long and hard into the very soul of Misato. And she
could recognize and remember the time when she did refuse to even speak from
behind all the torment that darkened her very soul with the lust for revenge.
While on her quest of retribution she had turned into a woman who could kill
anyone in cold blood. And that fact frightened her.
”Noooooo! Stay away from my head!!!” she screamed while she punched towards the
image of herself, only to have her fist go through her imagination that
shattered into tiny clouds.
She fell on her
knees, sobbing uncontrollably. She was weak and tired…. Of everything…. She reached for her gun. ”Kaji… I’ll soon
see you again…” she murmured, while she closed her eyes and pulled the trigger.
The gun didn’t
work.
“No! No! NO!!!!”
Misato screamed while starting to rapidly pulling the trigger. “Don’t let me
down now!! I need this!!!!”
“You’re like a
little kid Misato… Crying when their toy is broken… Why do you want to seek the
coward’s escape with suicide? Do you think you have no place in this world?”
Shinji spoke to her.
Misato glanced at
him with a look that could kill as she hissed, “What do you mean that I’ve got
a place in this world? I had nothing but….. Destroying the angels… And being
yours and Asuka’s guardian… But I failed…
I couldn’t save either of you from the despair and horror… NERV is
destroyed... And I’m… Dead?” and just then her eyes widened “That’s it, isn’t
it? I’m dead and this is how I’ll pay for my sins? I’ll be alone in the
darkness forever with my guilt as the only company?”
“Misato you’re
both right and wrong. You did die but you also didn’t. You, as well as anyone
who wants to, can resume their lives…. If they wish, they do not have to return
amongst the realm of living,” Shinji spoke while suddenly Misato could swear that
Shinji started to resemble more and more fifth child, Kaworu.
“Are you saying….
That the end of the world already came and this is some sort of a stage of
rebirth?” she asked, while not able to hide her surprised expression.
Kaworu smiled “All Lilim have the power to return to face the challenges of the
new life in the old world. You have a choice to choose the old world, or the
new world with no AT Fields, a world devoid of individualism. A world where you
exist nowhere, yet everywhere all at once. The beginning and the end are all
one in the same.”
She then realized
they were suddenly in an ocean made of LCL. Even though she was miserable, she
felt herself smiling. She was starting to get happy and all her troubles seemed
to disappear. She saw how her medallion was floating in the sea near her, so
she reached for it and took hold of it in her hands.
Misato was silent
as she looked at her own blood slowly floating off from the cross, but finally
said, “Which world did Shinji choose?”
“He chose the old
world, the world of Lilim. He wants to feel pain, so he can appreciate the
times when he’s not hurt more. He wants to feel sad, so he can appreciate
happiness more,” Kaworu spoke.
Misato looked at her gun in her hand “So… I can choose to either live in my
misery and guilt or I can be in utter bliss forever and ever?” she inquired
before falling silent. “In that case, I choose the original world. Even if my
guilt and torment would tear me apart, I’d rather feel the sadness than false
forced happiness when I’m truly miserable inside.”
“You Lilims are a
weird species. It’s truly sad that our encounter was so short Miss Misato as
I’m sure I too would learn much from it; but I must meet the others who have to
make their choice and then live with it.” Kaworu spoke while Misato suddenly
realized she was underneath water.
She gagged and
swam to the surface. She could see that at the beach nearby, Shinji was
strangling Asuka and crying over her body.
”How disgusting…” she thought while making her way to the shore.
Fin