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Part 11: To Have and Not to Hold

**Author’s notes: This is part 11 of a thirteen part lemon series (2 more fics to go! :). The lemon contains straight sex, yaoi sex, and masturbation. This lemon is also a continuation of ‘The Power of Good-bye’, and the entire fic will be told in Takato’s POV. Takato is 18 right now.**

Disclaimer: I don’t own Digimon. ‘Nuff said.

Now onto the story.

Hello, everybody. My name is Takato Matsuda, and this is my story, and what a story it is. All the events happened five years ago, leading from my straight sex life, to being bisexual. Well, I guess I should start at the beginning.

My story starts at the day before my girlfriend Jeri’s birthday. I was going to fuck her into tomorrow like I always do, but to my misfortune, she had to go on vacation, leaving me horny. So when I couldn’t get some from her, I decided to shrug it off for now and have Kazu, Kenta, and Ryo over for a trading card game. I beat that loudmouth Kazu with ease. Kenta was easy, but at least he put up more of a challenge. I must say he has learned over the years. But Ryo is a different story. He beat me with ease.

“How the hell did you get so good?” I asked.
“I just have more experience,” he replied.

After he beat me, the three of them went home, and so I went to bed quite early, even for me. That’s when it happened. I had a dream I was in the Digital World and I had sex with my Digimon buddy, Growlmon.

I don’t know why I had that dream, but when it was all over, I woke up really sweaty and with a large cum stain in the crotch area of my boxers. It was official. I had a wet dream about having gay sex with my old Digimon partner.

I kinda hate wet dreams because I always think I wet the bed. So I took off my boxers and tossed them to the side of the bed. Then I noticed my dick was rock hard. I reminded myself that I was not gay, I mean, I fuck Jeri whenever I can get the chance, and decided to beat my meat.

I took a grip on my cock and went up and down slowly, increasing my pace, like every 2 minutes. I moaned loudly and my hands went fast like a blur on my dick. Then my body stiffened and I shot my semen all over my chest and stomach.

“That felt good,” I groaned to myself, and got a washcloth I use to wipe my spent load from off my body. After I was done, I went back to sleep.

Three days had passed and Jeri had came back home without me knowing. I had mostly slept the days away without any contact from the outside world. As I was surfing the net and talking with a few of my school buddies on Instant Messaging, Jeri came over looking as sexy as ever. This is how the conversation went.

GuilmonFan: Hey man, my girlfriend Jeri just came over.
Kurokawa26: Really? From what I hear, she’s become a hot babe!
GuilmonFan: Yeah, and she’s all mine.

Then Jeri sauntered over to me, wearing nothing but a bra and panties, and began to put her round tits on my back and then she snaked her hand down my boxers and began to play with my semi-hard cock. I groaned in response.

Kurokawa26: Takato, what’s she doing now?
GuilmonFan: She’s…putting her luscious tits on my back, and rubbing my cock…it feels so good…
Kurokawa26: Oh, shit man…are you gonna hit it soon?

Before I could type, she playfully slapped my hands away.

“Let me,” she whispered.

GuilmonFan: Hello, Kurokawa. It’s Jeri. Yes, we’re gonna fuck soon.
Kurokawa26: Oh, man…Takato, turn on your webcam so I can jack off, please!

Then I took hold of the keyboard.

GuilmonFan: It’s Takato again. Sorry, dude, but this is a private show.

Then before I could give my buddy the chance to say how much of a bastard I was, I signed off immediately. Then she ripped off my shirt and pulled me onto the bed. She took off my boxers while I undid her bra and took off her panties.

“You don’t know how much I missed this,” said Jeri.

Then she brought her lips close to mine in a long, hard, and passionate kiss. It was a good while before we un-locked our lips. I loved the way her smooth tongue clashed with my tough one, and from the way she was moaning, I could tell she liked it too.

After she broke the kiss, she sucked on my neck multiple times giving me hickey after hickey. Then as she kissed around my chest and stomach, I played with those luscious tits. Then she went even further to my hard dick.

“I missed this a lot too,” she said.
“He missed you too,” I said.

Jeri giggled and began to lick the head of my cock. I shivered a little but this didn’t stop her tongue from dancing all around my throbbing dick. I moaned, refraining from try to cum (after all, she did give the best head in my opinion). Then she took my 8-inch cock down her throat with incredible ease.

“Oh, Jeri,” I groaned.

She sucked while her smooth tongue danced all around my cock. I moaned from the intense pleasure she was giving me. Jeri took this as a sign to go faster.

After her head bobbed up and down, I grunted and my body began to stiffen. It doesn’t take me long to cum, but when I do, I cum buckets, it seems. Anyhoo, I began to cum into her mouth, which she hungrily swallowed down her throat. She spat out my limp dick, and laid on her back, with her legs spread out wide open.

“Eat me, Takato,” she cooed. And I was more than happy to oblige.

This may sound silly, but I’ve always loved to eat her pussy. It always tasted like candy or fruit. Oh, god, I’m blushing. Anyway, I went down and began to take a whiff of her cunt. Mmm, wild strawberries. I began to tongue her awaiting cunt, licking each and every nook and cranny. She began to pant lightly. I loved the way she panted.

“Oh, Takato,” she moaned.

I licked her cunt for a few more minutes, and that was all I needed for my dick to get hard again. Then I took my tongue out and began to lube up my dick with some Vaseline I kept under my bed. I was ready and so was she.

“I’m ready, Takato,” she said. “Fuck me good.”
“I aim to please, baby,” I said.

Then I inserted my dick slowly, getting as much as I can into her pussy. Her muscles relaxed for me to enter her, then when I was done putting my dick inside her, her walls clamped onto my dick like a glove.

“You’re tight today, Jeri,” I said. Jeri just smiled.

I began to thrust in an out of her in slow but steady motion. I haven’t begun to let this get any better and she was already moaning and groaning, clamping firmly to my bedsheets. I kissed her lightly all over her body as I fucked her. Then I began to go faster and the bed began to rock a little.

“You like?” I asked her.
“I like,” she moaned.

I smiled and began to thrust in and out of her faster and harder.

“Ooh, Takato, faster…harder…”

I went faster and even deeper than before and the bed was beginning to rock a lot and creak loud. But I couldn’t even hear the bed, courtesy of Jeri groaning in ecstasy. I knew my parents would hear us down below, but I didn’t give a damn, this was getting too good.

Both of us were sweaty as both our orgasms neared.

“Ta…ka…to…, I’m…gonna…cum!!!” Jeri moaned.

A few more thrusts, and I came into her pussy. After she felt my seed, she orgasmed onto my chest and all over my bed.

“Oh, god,” she panted.

I escaped her and laid on the bed, both of us sweaty and panting. Then we both fell asleep. We both woke up at night and got cleaned up.

“It’s kinda dark for you to be walking alone,” I said. “I should walk you home.”
“I’ll be fine,” she insisted.

I let her go into the night, wondering if I should follow her or not. I decided against it, seeing how if I did follow her, she’d be mad. She claimed to be the second toughest girl next to Rika, so I took her word on it.

…But then I realized that I should’ve followed her. Around 9:45 PM, I got a call from Kenta.

“Kenta, what’s wrong?” I asked.
“Jeri…she got hurt…,” he panted over the phone.

I was shocked. “What?! What happened?”

“Meet me at the West Shinjuku Hospital. Immediately!”

I hung up the phone and me and my parents hurried to West Shinjuku Hospital. A few doctors led me to the room where Jeri and Kenta were.

“Kenta, what happened?” I demanded.
“Mizo and gang attacked Jeri,” Kenta said. “I ran into her on the street and they came from the dark. I tried to help her, bit I just got my ass kicked.”

Mizo was an enemy of mine since I went to high school. He wanted to be Jeri’s boyfriend, but she wouldn’t give the bastard the time of day. When he found out that she was seeing me, he got really jealous of me. I’ve always hated the bastard.

My parents and Kenta left the room so me and Jeri could be alone. I held her hand and she turned to face me.

“Maybe I should have let you take me home,” she said. She could barely speak to me and I had to move closer to hear her.

“You don’t have to talk much,” I told her. She smiled and breathed heavily. I found her heartbeats were slower than normal. There were many wounds all over her body. I bent down to kiss her on her lips.

She closed her eyes and said, “Even if I go, I will always love you.”
“You will be alright,” I assured her. “You will be alright.”

But I was wrong…she wasn’t alright. After 15 minutes of silence, I tried to shake her, but to no avail. Because I looked at the monitor and saw the flatline, it dawned on me that she was dead.

“No…NOOOOOOO! Jerrriiii!” I wailed. Kenta hurried into the room and saw that she passed away.

“Oh, Takato, I’m sorry,” said Kenta.

I didn’t hear him, I had too many emotions running through my mind.

Two weeks later, the funeral occurred. Mr. Katou was the only one crying a lot. With his first wife gone and now Jeri, he felt really alone. I went over and tried to talk to him.

“I’m sorry, Mr. Katou,” I said. “It was my fault.”
“No, Takato,” he said. “I taught her better not to walk in the night alone.”
“I know who did this to her, and I’m gonna get him.”

Mr. Katou put his hands on my shoulder. “Listen, son, don’t do anything stupid, you hear me? None of your friends, family or even Jeri would want to see you get in trouble.”

He had a point, but his words went in one ear and out the other. I was too angry and my anger was slowly increasing as I watched her casket get lowered into the ground. Tears of anger rolled down my checks. I left quickly out of the cemetery for a walk.

And then, I run into Mizo Kinebara.

“Well, if it isn’t Takato Matsuda,” he said. “How’s Jeri? Oh, that’s right, she’s dead!”

He laughed in my face, and all emotions took over. I punched him in the nose and began to bleed wildly. Then he pushed me against a wall and punched me in my stomach and my face. Then I kneed him in the groin, and he started chasing me through the park. That’s when he caught me. We brawled for a while, then I took out my Swiss army knife that Henry got me for my birthday and slit Mizo’s throat. He fell back and fell off the bridge to the river below. I saw the blood and wiped it off the inside of my coat, hoping nobody saw and raced back home.

Night had fell and my parents came home. I was already sleeping when they checked in on me. Then they both went to sleep. The next day, at 9 AM, the police came to the bakery and went upstairs to the apartment. They broke through the door and handcuffed me.

“Takato Matsuda, you’re under arrest for the murder of Mizo Kinebara,” said the policeman. “You have the right to remain silent. Anything you say can and will be used against you in the court of law…”

I couldn’t believe this was happening. I guess somebody did find out that I killed Mizo. I couldn’t bear to look at my mom or dad. They would be ashamed of me forever.

I was in court two days after my arrest and the jury found me guilty. I was sentenced to five years in prison.

“Why Takato?” asked Rika.
“I told you not to use that knife,” said Henry.

I couldn’t reply to them. I was too ashamed. I looked at Ryo dead in the eyes. He turned his head in disgust and I couldn’t blame him. Because of my thirst for vengeance, I was serving jail time.

23 is my age now. I served four and a half years in jail. (I was supposed to do 5, but they let me do four and a half due to good behavior.) It was brutal. Nothing to do and so many men looking for a piece of ass. But I never let them have the satisfaction of fucking me. One odd thing was when my parents actually came to see me.

“I thought you would be too ashamed to know me,” said Takato.
“We understand that you had to do what you did,” said my mom.
“I would’ve done the same thing,” said my dad.

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing.

“You’re getting out soon, right?” asked my mom.
“Yeah,” I replied. “In about 2 hours.”
“We’ll be waiting.”

I got my things and signed out. When I left the prison, my parents, Mr. Katou and my friends were all waiting for me. Everyone hugged me and seemed to be nice to me. We all went to dinner to celebrate my discharge from prison.

Kazu had the most sake to drink that night. But what was odd was I saw a side to him that I never thought I would. I was attracted to him. I guess it’s because of that dream I had so long ago and the fact I’ve been in prison for a long time.

When the party was over, Kazu somehow found his drunken ass into my parent’s car. So he went home with me. I had to carry him to my bedroom. He seemed heavier than the last time I saw him. Is it just me or did this guy put on a few pounds over the years?

I set him onto the bed and took off his pants and shirt. Apparently, Kazu did put on some weight over the years. I wondered how he did it, and then remembered his obsession with junk food. I chuckled to myself and began to rub his chest and belly and I found my dick getting hard, harder than when I was with Jeri.

While I was stroking him, I noticed he began to pitch a tent in his boxers. Then he woke up.

“I knew you liked me after all,” said Kazu.
“Kazu!” I shrieked.

He felt my cock.

“It’s hard,” he observed. “Harder than when you were with Jeri.”

He was acting like a big shot scientist, even when he was drunk. Amazing.

“Listen, Takato, all these years, I wished you were gay, because I love you man.”
“Tonight’s your lucky night,” I replied.
“You mean…?”
“Yeah. I’m in love you with you too. When I was in prison, I just couldn’t think about girls that much anymore, so I decided to think about you instead.”

I saw Kazu’s eyes glow. He didn’t know what to say. So I planted a kiss on his lips. He returned the kiss and we tongue-wrestled for a long while. While we were kissing, he stripped me of my clothes. Then he took off my boxers, while I took off his. I laid him on his back and I turned over so both of us were in a 69 position. We began to lick each other’s dicks and then we sucked each other, keeping the same rhythm. His dick felt so good in my mouth and from the way he was sucking, it felt good to him as well.

After a little bit of slow sucking, we went faster. We both groaned passionately and then went even faster. We sucked with all our might until both of us shot our seed into each other’s mouths. I happily swallowed his cum and he happily swallowed mine.

We then sat up and faced each other.

“Dude, I tasted your cum for the first time in 23 years,” said Kazu. “Thanks.”
“You’re welcome,” I replied.
“Uh…could you…you know, fuck me?”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes! I want you inside me.”
“Okay.”

Kazu got on all fours waiting for me to enter him. I reached for my Vaseline and found a new tub. I smiled and rubbed some all over my dick. Then I spread Kazu’s ass cheeks apart and began to insert my cock into his awaiting hole.

“Ready, Kazu?” I asked.
He groaned that he was ready.

I began to buck in and out of his ass, slowly building up pleasure for him and me. As I was thrusting, he began to moan out my name, and so I went faster. Sweat was forming on both our bodies and he groaned even louder than before.

“Oh, Takato…,” he moaned.

All I could do was smile, as I began to thrust faster and harder. Then I began to thrust even faster and harder. He gritted his teeth and moaned through his teeth.

“Kazuuuuu……,” I groaned.
“Duuuuuuudddddeeeeeee…,” Kazu groaned.

I shot my cum into his ass first and then he shot his load all over my chest and legs. We licked each other clean and then he fell asleep.

“Takato…I love you…,” he said in his sleep.
“I love you too,” I whispered into his ear.

Then I planted a kiss on his forehead and then pulled the covers over him. I wasn’t sleepy yet, so I decided to take a shower. I went into the shower and just stood there to let the hot water wash away the years of prison from my body and found that my dick was hard again. I gripped my dick and began to stroke myself slowly, then increasing my pace. I thought of all of the wonderful sex I had with Jeri for a brief while, and then I thought of all the wonderful sex I’ll have with Kazu in the future. That’s when my hand went really fast and then I shot my seed all over the front of the tub. I washed myself clean, hopped out of the tub and climbed into bed, holding Kazu in my arms.

Well, that’s my story. I’m bisexual, because I still think of the sex I had with Jeri from time to time, but I like boys more. I moved out of my mom’s house and Kazu moved out of his. We live together and we are happy being gay. Our friends don’t mind it much, although Kenta wishes he was with me. Heh.

I’m Takato Matsuda. Thank you for taking the time out to listen to my story. Later.

Part 11 complete. Part 12 coming soon.